Tuesday, March 25, 2008

The Hate List

It’s the 9th day of March, just a sleep away before my 19th birthday. And maybe, just maybe, I could be given the chance to declare the top five of what I hate most. When I say what I think, I don’t expect to hear only what I like. Of course, I know that some may raise their brows upon hearing, reading or learning these things.

I find this night as the right time for me to speak up. To those who would like to oppose, I guess you have the right to remain silent. Consider this as my time to shine. One more thing I shouldn’t miss telling you… hear me, I guess you have to respect me for once.

1.Mosquitoes making noise. Isn’t it irritating when you come home late, tired of all the requirements that you have in school, finally got home and thought that you have all the night for you to rest and mosquitoes just couldn’t keep their wings off? Yes, petty as how you think, but its irking, really irking that sometimes make me go crazy, thinking of firing them. The better if they happen to be dogs barking or roommates chatting with each other the whole night. At lest if I start raising my brows and knock four times in my bed, they will somehow know that I’m starting to build my own hell against them. If they still insist, then I will have to scream at them. Unlike in these tiny mosquitoes that all I have to do is clap and clap until I consume the whole night.

2.Divorce and divorcees. Yes, I hate you! I just couldn’t imagine if these people sufferer from time constraints that they have not thought of knowing the other person deeper. Or, have they not disciplined themselves and realize that they are already inside marriage and that they could not commit themselves to other? Appreciate, yes! But dwell and find pleasure, absolutely not!

I don’t know what kind of government are those who accepted divorce in their country. Do they appreciate and want more wrecked homes? They’re like giving poisons to those couples telling them that it’s for their salvation. How pathetic!

Sometimes, I hope and pray that teenagers will take a closer look at them and realize that courtship and engagement need to be longer, and that marriage is not like a one night stand event that could be forgotten when you wake up the next day.

3.boys and girls who have plenty of boyfriends and girlfriends. I hear several friends who are bragging about their girlfriends from here and there plus the points of kissing them and telling it to others. I don’t hate them because I only have one eversince. What really boils my blood, which even makes it reach its highest boiling point, is the idea of playing. Whom are they fooling? Is it these clueless boyfriends and girlfriends from here and there and not themselves? I don’t see the logic.

They say that you don’t really have to be serious. After all, you’re still young. Yes, you are young but you will not stay young for the rest of your life. As youngsters, you should know in the beginning what matters in the end. What’s the use ob building thousands of dreams with hundreds of people when you know none would come true? What a waste of time.

These boys, when they hear about girls who have plenty of beaus from here and there would question why girls act that way. Hello boys! Aren’t you slapping your faces by raising those questions? Though you are all branded as polygamous in nature, doesn’t follow that you really have to be.


Where are you looking at my dear teenagers? Maybe you have focused your eyed to wrong things—Byonce’s concert. MTV, and all enjoyable stuffs. Time to redirect your eyes.

4.There are things I hate to see in other people. Please don’t get me wrong. Things are not in literal sense. I maybe envy them, and I won’t deny that possibility. When I see people who are emotionally strong and don’t drop a tear easily, I hate the idea. Not because I want them to be weak as I am, but because I want to be as strong as they are.

5.People who immediately judge you and let their prejudices govern them. I am such a friendly person, but none of these thousands of friends that I have has told me that they liked me from our very first encounter. Not until they discovered the real me. Isn’t it boggling when people just turn their backs on you because they think that you are like this and that, though they really never knew you from inside out?

Though I have almost a hundred percent of my friends withdraw their first impression on me, I still have the remaining portion dwelling on them. What’s more irritating is when you’ve already done your best to correct them, yet strongly founded on their prejudices. Well, that’s not my problem anymore. I have shown the very color of my intestine, if you don’t like it, I don’t have to bargain. If you can’t accept me at my worst, them you don’t deserve me at my best.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

The Hate Letter

just wanna share this to you all...
it's a proof that really, love moves in mysterious ways...:)

Read this "HATE letter". It is so funny and creative. This is a loveletter from a boy to a girl.... However, the girl's father does not like him and want them stop their relationship......and so..the boy wrote this letter to the girl..he knows that the girl's father will definitely read this letter..

1 "The great love that I have for you
2 is gone, and I find my dislike for you
3 grows every day. When I see you,
4 I do not even like your face;
5 the one thing that I want to do is to
6 look at other girls. I never wanted to
7 marry you. Our last conversation
8 was very boring and has not
9 made me look forward to seeing you again.
10 You think only of yourself.
11 If we were married, I know that I would find
12 life very difficult, and I would have no
13 pleasure in living with you. I have a heart
14 to give, but it is not something that
15 I want to give to you. No one is more
16 foolish and selfish than you, and you are not
17 able to care for me and help me.
18 I sincerely want you to understand that
19 I speak the truth. You will do me a favor
20 if you think this is the end. Do not try
21 to answer this. Your letters are full of
22 things that do not interest me. You have no
23 true love for me. Good-bye! Believe me,
24 I do not care for you. Please do not think that
25 I am still your boyfriend."

So bad!! However, before handing over the letter to the girl, the boy told the girl to "READ BETWEEN THE LINES", meaning-only to read 1.3.5.7.9.11.13.15.17.19.21.23.25. (Odd Numbers) So..Please try reading it again! It's so smart & sweet.... :)

BPA, part of MSUan's diet?

Cherry Lacang thought that she’ll be able to finish her Accountancy degree in Mindanao State University, free of any respiratory disease being away from city with all the smoke coming out from all the factories and many vehicles.

Students in MSU are enjoying an affordable tuition fee with affordable food, minus fare since almost all students walk in attending their classes.

The university offers not just affordable tuition fee. As a matter of fact, students from other universities even think that everything is accessible here. An ordinary student could eat thrice a day and take some snacks between meals. A certain area is designated for “karenderias.” They sell different variety of food everyday. Students buy food from this area and bring the food they’ve bought at home. Everybody seems immune with the scenario of beautiful women and macho-gwapito boys with plastic cellophane in hand containing newly cooked foods from 5th Street going home. This has been an MSU lifestyle already.

When several students were asked why they prefer taking home the food they’ve bought rather than eating inside these karenderias available, the answers were almost the same. Their answer was either they’re comfortable eating at home or they want to avoid acquiring whatever disease they could possibly acquire from using the utensils available inside.

Plastic is made by combining monomers into polymers under great heat and pressure in the pressure in the process called polymerization. Each manufacturer has its own propriety formula for each plastic. And each uses a variety of additives such as plasticizers for flexibility, UV filters for protection from sunlight, antistatic agent, flame-retardants, colorants, antioxidants and more.

Heavy metals such as cadmium, mercury and lead are common additives. These are also chemicals used to facilitate production such as mold releases and countless other toxic chemicals added to plastic consumer good without our knowledge or approval.

Plastics are ubiquitous in our lives because it is convenient and relatively inexpensive. Its convenience comes from being light weight and its ability to absorb impact shock without breaking, which in its own merit, is hard to argue with. It comes in an endless range of colors and finishes, is pliable and is easily formed and molded. Its inexpensiveness is the result of the large portion of the costs associated with its life—production, use and disposal and molded.

For decades, the plastic industry has been giving the assurance that the polymerization process binds the constituent chemicals together so perfectly that the resulting plastic is completely non toxic and passes through us without a hitch.

When you eat or drink things are stored in plastic, taste it, smell it, wear it, sit on it and so on, plastic is incorporated into you. In fact, the plastic gets into the food and food gets into the plastic and you. So, quite literally, you are what you eat, drink, and breath—plastic! These plastics are called “Food Contact Substances” by the US Food and Drug Administration (FDA), but until April 2002, they were called “Indirect Food Additives.” The new name was cleansed of the implication that plastic gets into your food. In spite of this semantic deception, migration is a key assumption of the FDA.

However, in 1995, the Bisphenol-A Toxicology Task force of the society pf plastic industry, Incorporated completed a comprehensive review of available data on BPA. Seven laboratory animal reproduction and development tests, including four conducted by the U.S. National Toxicology Program were reviewed. These studies found no evidence that BPA selectively affects reproduction or development. Rather, effects on reproduction and development were observed only at the doses of BPA so high that the health of the pregnant animal was compromised. These conclusions are consistent with those reported in the Comprehensive European Union Risk Assessment on BPA.

A hypothesis has been advanced claiming that exposure to extremely low doses of certain substances could cause adverse health effects in humans, including disruption of normal hormonal functions. According to this “low-dose hypothesis,” health effects occur at doses far below levels previously determined to be safe using well-established toxicological procedures and principles. The hypothesis further asserts that the dose-response relationship for the substance is “non-monotonic,” which means that health effects may only be observed at low-doses while much higher doses result in no effects.

The low-dose hypothesis is largely based on several small-scale experimental studies that report reproductive or developmental effects in mice or rats from low doses of BPA. Several attempts to confirm the hypothesis by repeating these initial experiments have shown that the results are not capable of replication which indicates that the hypothesis is not valid. Therefore, definitive large-scale experiments using accepted protocols have also found no evidence for reproductive or developmental effects from low-doses of BPA. A number of independent scientific bodies after reviewing all available evidence have concluded that the low-dose hypothesis is unproven.

One study conducted was considered most comprehensive was a three generation study at the Research Triangle Institute under the direction of Dr. Rochelle Tyl. In this study, Sprague-Dawley rats were fed a diet containing BPA at levels from 0-7500 parts per million, yielding approximate intakes of 0, 0.001, 0.02, 0.3, 5, 50, or 500 mg/kg body weight per day. Exposures were continued until adulthood of the third generation offspring and wide variety of relevant endpoints for the parental and three offspring generations revealed no evidence of a low dose effect of BPA. It clearly demonstrated the absence of low dose effects for BPA.

These studies generally show that under typical use conditions, the potential migration of BPA into food is extremely low. Migration testing under conditions that are typical ofhow polycarbonate products are actually used, indicates that migration of BPA, when detected, is generally less than five parts per billion. The potential human exposure to BPA ismore than 400 times lower than the US EPA reference dose. The minimal level of exposure to BPA poses no known risk to human health. That’s their claim.

On the other hand, according to Dr. George Pauli, Associate Director of Science Policy, FDA Office of Food Additive Safety, the regulations mandated in 1958 assume that all plastics in to the food they contact. Migration is the movement of free toxins from plastic into the substances they contact—in this case, it’s your food.

Extremely low doses are especially relevant because they can upset the natural balance of the Endocrine System (EDs) are external agents that interfere with the production, release, transport, metabolism, binding, action or elimination of natural hormones in the body responsible for maintaining internal balances and the regulation of developmental processes. Some chemicals can be more toxic at extremely low doses than extremely high doses. The timing of the exposure can much more be relevant than its done. Most vulnerable are in periods of rapid growth, such as those in embryo and children right up to puberty. They can be exposed in the womb and before conception, sperm/ovum are contaminated.

Synergy is also one issue that is mostly disregarded by the FDA. A synergy can occur between two or more chemicals that elevate the combination’s toxicity to hundred of times greater then that of the individual chemicals.

In April 2003, a study was published about BPA accidentally killing mice that had been held in polycarbonate cages at a lab. It was accidentally found when it ruined a lab experiment that heated yeast in PC flasks to find out if the yeast produced estrogen. It was discovered that BPA from PC flasks was the material that was estrogenic, and that it completed with the natural estrogen in the rats body.

The list of negative health effects associated in some way with exposure to BPA is remarkably long. The most visible effect and what really scares most is uneuploidy, a chromosome abnormality found in more than 5% of pregnancies. Most uneuploid fetuses die in utero. About one-third of all miscarriages are uneuploid, making it the leading known cause of pregnancy loss. Among conceptions that survive, uneuploidy is the leading genetic cause of developmental disabilities and mental retardation. It is associated with Down syndrome, Patau syndrome, Edward’s syndrome, and other diseases including Alzheimer’s.

Bisphenol-A, being one of many unknown endocrine disruptors, BPA affects development, intelligence, memory, learning, and behavior, skeleton, body size and shape, significant increase in prostate size, decreased epididymal weight and longer anogenital distance, prostate cancer, reduced sperm count, both physical and mental aspects of sexuality.

BPA is about 10,000-fold less potent than 17B-estradiol, a potent estrogen that is synthesized primarily in the ovary, but also in the placenta, testis and possibly adrenal cortex. Because of the disparity, industry representatives claim that it causes no harm at the levels that the majority of the people are exposed to.

The government has been passive regarding the possible negative health effects of the use of plastic, so are we. There is actually even minimal number of researches conducted in the Philippines that which can be considered as one of the reasons why Filipinos are less aware or even totally unaware of the negative health effects of the use of plastic.

According to an expert, this issue has sprung from rivalry among beverage producing companies such as coca-cola. Some researchers intervened but had to back-off before these companies conspire with each other and file a case against them. As a matter of fact, there are only few researches that found the negative effects of the use of plastic in human health that succeeded and were published or told to the public while many articles and researches using different doctors, scientists, and institutions in denying these hazards.

In the campus, using plastic is rampant and there was no enough warning from the people we consider as experts in terms of the chemical components and its hazards to human. Though we couldn’t solely put the blame to those experts, we still consider their lack of concern and knowledge as a factor of this ignorance.

The issue of plastic cellophane in the campus as food container is found by the students to be beneficial, either because they can throw the cellophane after use, which means, they no longer have to wash dishes after.

Though it’s a hard habit to break, now is the right time for us to think if we are really saving something by depriving ourselves of the washing dishes.

Sources:

  • ecologycenter.org
  • Prof. Nelia Autor

Chemistry Department

College of Natural Sciences and Mathematics

love, love, love...


how do you find falling in love?
according to a principle of Philosophy,
"love is a lie that human beings can't live without."

but for me, love is when you know that though worst times will come, still you will be happy...

i say this not to give trivia, but to challenge you all... figure it out...

e-mail me if you finally got it right guys!

Puppetry as a tool for Social change

Puppetry, like other forms of performing arts, is widely accepted in life. Like theatre, puppetry presents live characters on the stage and, through the disappearance of the 'fourth wall', brings them into flesh-and-blood contact with the audience. Puppetry calls for a willing suspension of disbelief --- through symbolic representation of real characters through puppets. The audience is persuaded to accept the icons as representation of reality and, through this representation, gets involved heart and soul!

It is seldom realized that puppetry has, besides its entertainment and educational aspects, several supportive roles to the society. Both children and adults can gain assistance in the area of rehabilitation. Puppetry can be put up with used material and costumes, and can be shown either in daylight or under illumination from brass or earthen lamps. It has an appeal to the young and old alike and is perhaps the ideal medium for the rich and poor, scholar and illiterate, the child and adult. Everyone can laugh with a comedy and cry with a tragedy, and the events and problems of the puppet-play can easily be made relevant to one's own life. Hence the utility of the puppet-medium for religious sermons as well as social preaching on cleanliness, resistance to disease, and awareness on many ills and ailments in our social life..

The role of puppetry as a vocation in India is far from satisfactory. The traditional puppeteers, who might have had such a vocation even some years ago, have left it and even their children are not encouraged. Many workshops held at official level, to revive interest in puppetry as a vocation, have not produced tangible results. It does seem that the rapid advancement of the electronic media is pushing traditional puppetry even further to the background. The other major drawback in India is the absence of organized curriculum on puppetry in universities or colleges as also the lack of university theatre-groups and clubs who can take puppet-shows to children and social centre. This has resulted in any person, wishing to take up puppetry as a vocation, to depend only on his own initiative and attach himself to an urban puppet-group, if he resides in a city. On the contrary, there are no set academic courses that can be used for training. Since there no State-owned or State-supported puppet theatre, official patronage can hardly be said to exist, --- where trained people even from amateur groups can come and join for a vocation.

There are vital social issues like illiteracy, status of women, bride burning, dowry system, female infanticide, family planning, and other problems, which need urgent attention from one and all. In the above milieu, puppetry can be a powerful tool for inducing social action and bringing in social change. Puppetry can convey messages through its tragic and comic themes reflecting the realities of society and its environment. Traditional puppetry in India has a built-in value system, which is in consonance with the Indian social ethos. The Yampuri puppets in Bihar are quite explicit about socially correct activities permissible in heaven and wrong activities debarred from it. The Puranic tales narrate the relentless pursuit of good deeds and good conduct which make the rest of the world, including Death, bow down to them. When the puppet-plays adopt historical characters, they depict the triumph of the good and punishment of the evil. It is striking to note that even the timing and duration of the performances are both linked to social purposes, based on the belief-system that a timely puppet-play brings rains, prevents pestilence and yields a good crop. The all-night duration is often associated with the notion of sanctity of the place and the security of the audience against social ills. Traditional puppeteers are occasionally used for spreading social messages on the need for life insurance, the habit of banking, family planning, traffic rules, etc.

As stated above, puppetry can be a powerful medium for helping therapy, easing rehabilitation and promoting social change, --- apart from providing a wonderful opening as a vocation. This is primarily due to the puppet's universal appeal to all: where animals and birds are welcome and sex does not play a role.

Source: http://puppetindia.com/function3.htm

grizabella, the glamour cat

we were assigned to choose a name in one of our cognate. i happen to watch the play THE CATS and the name caught my attention. let me share something about who grizabella is aside from being the glamour cat.

enjoy it!

Grizabella

Elaine Paige as Grizabella in the 1998 Cats video.


Grizabella is the "Glamour Cat" in the musical production Cats. She does not appear in T. S. Eliot's work Old Possum's Book of Practical Cats, but she is a prominent character in the stageplay. It appears that she is a character taken from T.S. Eliot's poem "Rhapsody on a Windy Night". It is also mentioned on The Really Useful Company's Really Useful Group web site that Eliot's widow Valerie gave Trevor Nunn a piece of paper with an eight line poem on it called "Grizabella the Glamour Cat".

Grizabella is, at the time of her appearance, a very old cat, withered by her age to the point that she no longer resembles the proud, carefree, flamboyant dancer of her youth. Her fellow Jellicles, especially the younger females, are quite jealous of Grizabella and hence sadistically pleased to see her in a dishevelled condition.

Possibly because of this jealousy, it is Grizabella whom Old Deuteronomy consigns to the Heaviside Layer to be reborn. During her change, Grizabella sings the song "Memory", which has been thought of by audiences as a very emotionally touching, profound, and even mysterious composition. It has been recorded by over 150 different artists, including Barry Manilow, Michael Crawford, and Barbara Streisand.

Another interpretation of Grizabella's past is that she left the Jellicle tribe to explore the outside world ("Grizabella the Glamour Cat"), despite knowing that she would never be allowed back in. The other cats shun her for leaving them, despite that she wants to be with them again. After several attempts to gain their acceptance, Grizabella's emotional appeal (represented by "Memory") is accepted; seeing how much that she suffered, she is chosen to be reborn.

The name Grizabella is probably derived from "grizzle" which means either "grey" or "disheveled", and "belle" which means "beauty". Hence "Grizabella"; "The grey beauty" or "the disheveled beauty".

T.S. Eliot probably got the name from the combination of the word "Grissete" which referred to women who worked in France in the years before World War I, who were cigarette sellers on the streets, who got the nickname due to their worn out grey muslin dresses.

The role of Grizabella was originated by Elaine Paige in the West End production, who later reprised the role for the video. In the first Broadway production, Grizabella was played by Betty Buckley. Buckley won the Tony Award for outstanding achievement in the theater in 1982 for playing Grizabella.


Lost and found: dad

i just wanna share this article with you.. this is something personal about me.. i hope it will inspire you in any way..



It was January, just a couple of days after New Year’s Eve when my mom was about to deliver her sixth child. I felt the excitement in the atmosphere, especially when I looked at my stepfather’s face. It was as if his whole body was in chaos. I envied the unborn child.

While looking at them, I made a conjecture why kismet deprived me of having my dad worry this much when my mom was about to give birth to me. I’m not in ire with fate or what, I just wonder how it feels to have a dad of my own.

My mom just graduated from college when she was impregnated. My dad was still studying then and was forced to continue schooling from afar when his parents knew that mom was pregnant. He left without leaving a single word of assurance that he’ll be back after several years or even a decade. So my mom suffered nine months of discrimination even from her own family. Though I never felt the shame she had, I know she had it badly but dealt with it bravely. A big wow to her when she was forced to drink something to abort me but refused to. She even flew away to escape from her own family.

Next day after she gave birth to me, she was threatened when her aunt proposed to adopt me. Before they could settle the matter, mom registered me under her. She stood up and went to the civil registrar of the place through the help of the midwife. She suffered but she was so strong that she did that.

Now that I’m already 18, I realized so many things about premarital sex and the like issues. I know my mom was not bad when she was younger. I know she didn’t really plan giving birth to someone without a father. Maybe she forgot or got blinded with the promises that all men could raise to any woman they wanted to make love with.

I’m still dubious if my father really thought of marrying mom. We’ve seen each other for several times already but we’ve never really talked about serious matters.

When I was seven years old, he went back for good, maybe to marry mom but it was too late for him to do that. Mom was already three months pregnant. He was not even allowed to see and talk to mom. He had no choice.

I believe that finding and having are two too different things. Yes, I did find him but this just makes me more sad. I only found him and have my whole life dying to have him.

I don’t actually put so much emotion on this issue of my life. In fact, I’m happily enjoying everything that life is offering me. It’s only during the times that big problems confront me that I remember this and have the idea that I should have not suffered or even encountered such problems if only my dad made a good woman of my mom.

When I look at kids inside churches and parks with their father, I can’t help but ask myself “what if I have my dad with me?” Ode et amo (I hate and love) to see fathers kiss their kids anytime they wanted to; those who know the first words spoken by their children; especially those who play with their kids. These kids got something I have to live without.

This issue has never been a secret to me. Mom was open to me about what happened and I’m really thankful. When mom knew that I was already able to understand, she started construing everything. Most people ask me what made me so mature so early and I guess it’s all because I was exposed to mature issues even at my young age. I sometimes realize that I’ve never really felt being a kid. I remember when I was younger, I didn’t play with kids. I preferred talking to elders and even got scolded so often for doing that. Well, mom and grandma always told me not to interrupt to mature talks. Now I know they were right when they said so. However, I still did. I believe that my playmates who were of my age didn’t had the same level of maturity as mine, though I was not underestimating them. When we talked, they always asked me to explain things further and all I had to say was “it’s not that I can’t explain; it’s just that you wouldn’t understand.” It irritated me when they kept me explaining everything.

My early years were not so easy. I had to nimble with things especially in dealing with practical issues in life.

The situation and misfortune itself truly changed what the whole scenario should have been. It gave me the edge; it changed my perception about life, about everything, especially about love.

However, I have my step dad with me. Our relationship is okay and he treats me as his own. This makes me happy and sad at the same time. The idea that this man treats me this and that way, keeps me figuring out what could have been if he’s the real one.

Worst is, I lost my dad without even having him.